So about two hours ago I downloaded music from this guy called Bibio which basically blew my mind. He's especially influenced by Boards of Canada, so it's obvious why I love him so much. The music covers more of a broad spectrum of folksy and funk, but it's still amazing. I started reading Bibio's blog on Myspace talking about the Boards of Canada album "The Campfire Headphase" and somebody responded to it and had this to say about Boards of Canada--

I just thought it was really great, because that's how I've always felt about this band and this type of music-- that it taps into this whole other consciousness. It may sound kind of like bullshitty stoner talk, but that's how I really feel. It's nice to listen to music that makes you feel like you're where you're supposed to be.

School and things have been good. I suppose I've just started to feel kind of useless lately. Maybe it's all the partying, or the lack of doing any extracurricular resume-building. Maybe I'm just slipping into the usual kind of rut people get into when anything starts feeling too familiar. I feel like now I can really try to get things done. I need to learn how to handle responsibility again. All I've wanted to do was shake things off. I thought senior year would've prepared me to put up with more, but instead I just feel burned out. I've just felt like I've totally regressed and that I'm not nearly as mature as I thought. Or perhaps I'm just reading too much into having a good time? I don't know.

I decided that I'll maybe try auditioning for a play next semester. That, or get a job. I tried to write a poem the other day for the first time since I can't even remember when and I just don't think it's "in me" any more. It makes me wonder who I'm kidding. I've been so everywhere though. I still get insecure of my abilities of course, but for the most part I've been more confident in myself overall. Despite the usual guilt and things that I try to push on myself, I've never felt so good about being me. There's a lot of things I don't question anymore and it's such a relief.

Slowly but surely I'm learning. It's all a phase, I know it. I don't do anything to stop it because testing myself has been such a big, interesting experiment. Typical, but whatever. Getting it out of my system, that's what this all is.

Here's two songs by Bibio:

Jealous of Roses

Kaini Industries (Boards of Canada cover)

I drink at least two cups of coffee a day, one in the morning and one at night. It's so good even though it's probably not the best thing for me. I have a math test tomorrow. I fucking hate that class.

Oh man. History has just been made! Obama won! I feel so excited for the next four years and what's to come of them. I hope he doesn't disappoint. I voted, and even though it didn't count because I'm in a red state, I still feel proud and like I did something. I want to make sure I remember this.

And I'm lol-ing at McCain people on Facebook right now-- "omg I'm moving to Canada". Losars.